We All Fall From Grace

Such disappointment!
That's how i found myself relating to humankind: With utter disappointment.
I looked around at everything that people have accomplished, and the results i witnessed were heartbreaking. Selfishness; violence towards one another; violence towards plants and animals; careless poisoning of their bodies; careless mistreatment of their Earth and only home; gratuitous greed and bold-faced lying; complete acceptance of ignorance; etc.
*sigh*

I had fallen from a state of grace. I lost faith in humanity, which means i lost faith in the Divine part of us all.
I no longer wanted to connect or communicate with anyone, for they are a part of the problem. They are human.
I no longer wanted to take great care of myself or revere existence, for the plague of humans is connected to all of it.
In short, i no longer felt love. Instead i was filled with sadness and defeat.

I have been here before, in this place of depression, my faith wavering. I'm sure we have all fallen from grace, fallen from a state of peace and love and positivity. However, i had the presence of mind to observe what i was experiencing. This fall into despair was unlike my other visits into depths of faithlessness.
So what was different this time?

This time i still felt the sadness and disappointment in humanity, and the possible future it was leading to, but these thoughts and emotions were not directed to "them". I was disappointed in "us". I was disgusted by "our" actions and "our" decisions.
If someone littered on the sidewalk i was upset that "i", a human being, would be so careless.

This was an altogether new experience for me. All of the emotions of previous tests of faith were identical, but i found myself taking responsibility for that which disappointed me. It was a wonderful realization.
My heart was not crushed by the actions of others. My heart was crushed by the actions of extensions of myself.

Each of us is at the centre of the universe, creating and expanding outwards.
Each of us is linked to all life, its experiences, and the many results of its combined decisions. Therefore, on some level whatever is upsetting me is... me!

I strongly believe that all things everywhere are linked by an infinitely expanding series of fractal systems that appear separate to the senses, but are actually a single, complex "reality". Now i have been blessed by observing that belief during a personal trial.

It's the beginning of a new chapter for me. One that i think anyone can be a part of.
Though a fall from grace is considered negative, the experience is ultimately a powerfully positive gift!

In my heart it is confirmed that we are in fact all united by an invisible force, a field of energy, a Holy Spirit that binds us to the Universe. In my soul i have confirmation that my outward experiences are a reflection of my inner self - my thoughts, choices, and personal perspectives.

In my mind i see how this holds true for all. I think that my experience has shown me something about the entire human species.
I believe we are all evolving towards a point of transition where it is possible to better understand that We Are All ONE.
I see that we can choose to continue upon a path of unification, where we are all responsible for one another's actions - or we can choose to continue living under the influence of separation.

It is difficult to concisely express in words what this test of faith has revealed to me, but i know it is a profound new chapter for me. And since we are all ONE, i suspect it gives me a glimpse of a new chapter beginning for humankind.

Once again i can see the truth. That in fact, i love us all!


Deepest Blessings!